Disapointment.

Trust.

Its never been anything I was ever good at. Ive always had problems trusting, being trusted.

Trust is something im depending on recently. Im having trouble trusting myself for the most part. But im getting there. I hope. I think. We'll see.

I think i lost my inspiration again. Fuck.'

Oh well. Im tired of having to depend on people even though I know i have to for some things. Yay.. Ugh.

Im also starting to realize what friends i can actualy talk to. Ones who will actually talk back.. Someone once said something about friends in highschool. Whatever they said i bet they were right.

I think friends, or most of them, are unreliable. Which is hallarious because i take it as them avoiding me. Like one of them today. Yepp... Im not in the best mood. Its not how to get better. I try to get help. I try to talk to people and they bail out on me. I not only feel crushed.. but.. Fuck.. Where is everyone tonight?

Meh. Bri is holding on for now.. but somethings gotta give sooner or later..